Sometimes it is very difficult to be a religious Catholic in this country...
I like to think that I am religious - a believer and an active member of the Church. I believe in the teachings of the Holy Bible, I attend masses regularly, I pray at least twice a day, I talk to God in my thoughts quite frequently, etc. At the same time I am quite selfish, sarcastic and bitchy, but I try really hard to improve, to become a better person- loving and altruistic, it is not easy and I stumble a lot but I try nonetheless.
However, recently it has become very difficult for me to visit God in His house and attend a mass without feeling a serious discord between the teaching of priests and my own conscience, believes and better judgement. For I am a liberal feminist, I can't help it. I don't think that gay people are sick, that a woman's role is minding the house, the children and the house on top of a professional career (if she's suicidal enough to crave for one) and I think that the doctors, nurses, etc. have every right to go on strike...
Sadly, this doesn't quite agree with the teachings I get in Church every Sunday. And I don't mean the teachings of the Holly Bible, I mean the opinion of the priests. It really bothers me how far the Church goes in trying to influence the politics in my country. How bent it is on promoting the 'healthy family' model and on showing off 'religiousness', whereas the beliefs ought to be well hidden within one's heart and not displayed to the public.
And today, when the priest began his sermon by criticising the protests of the nurses, doctors and teachers, saying that they are attempts of 'a force' to destroy 'the force presently in power' to regain the power themselves. (I am not making this up!)
So then the sermon went on to talk about the joy of making a sacrifice etc. but it mattered no more what the priest was saying, because I was angry and unhappy with his first words and could listen to him no more.
It makes me so very sad that when I go to meet God in the Church and I meet politics and political lobby instead... Why does it have to be like that? The place for God is, true, everywhere, but the place for politics is not, it should be limited. I say NO to the omnipresent politics!!!!
1 comment:
Bang on! Church meddling in politics is one of the things that get on my nerves and make me want to leave Poland. Badly enough, politicians, notably the far- and center-right, are active in involving the Church in their cause. What is really beyond my can is that some of the believers, if not most, actually do follow and believe what the priests say. Also, I can't believe that priests - people who are to be the guards of morality - can be so corrupt and hipocritical. And all this seems to be happening with the tacit agreement of the Vatican!
I don't go to Church because I'm an atheist, but I've heard and read about such incidents many times. Yours only confirms my opinions.
Post a Comment